Burn Out

I have been burned out big time lately and the website has suffered, more than suffered it was like one of those sad eyed neglected children with a distended belly and flees flying around its matted hair… okay maybe that is a bit of an exaggeration but you get the point.

These past few months – starting around the beginning of fall up to the holidays – have been really tough. Shitty would be more honest, shitty both figuratively and literally. Potty training was a complete bust. Michael will not do it. I can not get him to say a final good bye to his diapers. So besides the literally shitty-ness that was happening behind curtains, in corners and all over our new wood floors there was the figurative shitty-ness that almost broke our spirits. It started with an H1N1 scare, then a couple bad colds for the boys then of course Tim and I got sick. Just when we thought we were turning the corner on all the sickness Michael got really sick. We found out that he actually did have H1N1. Then Patrick got it but not as bad because of the drugs the Doctor prescribed. Shortly after that I started getting sick too. I didn’t have H1N1. Nope, I had something else. After five failed tests the sixth finally confirmed that I was sick from the baby that was growing in my belly. Pregnant! Again! Number three will be here in July. The due date is July 14th. This news was not shitty. This news kept us going and made us so very happy. However on top of being elated over being pregnant I was sick. I had severe all day morning sickness. It got so bad that i needed to go on meds just to get through the day. I lived on applesauce and saltines for almost 2 months. It was the best diet I have ever been on. I dropped major weight and eating became a 3 times a day battle. And during all of this it was crazy busy Roll Out time for Tim. He was working on average 90-100 hours a week.

It was a challenging few months, so yes, the website did suffer. We will get some pics up soon and maybe even a few videos. Mom- I am still trying to capture Michael singing Jesus Loves me on video. I promise to post the video as soon as I trick Michael into singing in front of the camera!

Christmas was a nice break-even if that break included 2 feet of snow. The boys had a blast playing with family and being spoiled with tons of toys. Tim and I were grateful for the time to relax (and for all the great loot ).

I am starting to feel better. The all day morning sickness is now just morning sickness sprinkled with a few boughts of sickness through out the day usually around meal time. I have been able to put back on all the weight I lost so that is some good news. Tim says this one has to be a girl because boys don’t cause this much trouble!

This post has been a serious downer. This fall and the start of winter hasn’t been all bad. We had a great Thanksgiving with just the 4 of us. Michael’s obsession with animals has jump started a love for learning. Because of animals he now knows his alphabet and sings his ABCs with out hesitation, he counts to 50 (then gets confused and goes back to 15) and he sings Jesus Loves Me all by himself. Patrick learns a new word everyday and expresses himself so well, better than Michael ever did at this age. His new word today was monkey. He is also counting. He only counts to 2 consistently. An occasional 3 is thrown in there but that is only when he is counting with Michael.

So I guess all and all the Lord never gives us more than we can handle… He tested us this fall but through Him and some strong meds from our doctor we made it through!

And yes Beth, You read this whole thing and I didn’t attach any pics. Give me time. I will try my best to get some up tonight.

One thought on “Burn Out

  1. Jess

    Hang in there, Meg! Spring will be here before you know it. And we’ll have a girls’ weekend before then to help the time pass.

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